I love how much opportunity is available to us. In terms of career, hobbies relationships. We have so many paths that we can follow. But with that freedom comes with the responsibility of choosing. What is “right” for me?
If I had infinite energy and time, I would literally do everything. I’d travel everyday, dance everyday, take classes on marketing and event planning and hand lettering, go kayaking every night, and see my family and friends as much as possible. I’d learn how to ride a motorcycle, and commit to a Broadway tour of Wicked as Elphaba, and see my boyfriend as much as I want. I’d read three books a day, and volunteer at City Impact and the Food Bank weekly. But alas, I am not Superwoman.
Ever since I was a kid, I was constantly involved. Most of the time to the point of overextending myself, exhausted, running on fumes, but happy that I was learning and contributing to my community or my family, or my personal well-being. But I’m learning the downside of being a jack-of-all-trades, and now, I’m trying to gear myself towards focus and utilizing my strengths.
However, I struggle with going towards a more simplified, narrow path. Is this right for me? Am I missing out on better opportunities? I compare myself to others, seeking understanding on what I feel like I should be doing to progress, but falling short. I am not them, they are not me. I’m realizing that I can be inspired by them, but I must aspire to do what’s right for me in this place and time in my life.
Now I’m learning to engage fully on a few things. What’s funny is that a few things for me is a lot to some, but not enough to others. As long as I’m a work in progress, I guess. I’m coming to realize that narrowing my priorities is not limiting me to the world. I feel like it’s illuminating a path that I would be missing if I was all over the place, travelling into a dimension that would otherwise be inaccessible with a lack of experience, intrigue, hard work, and intentional effort.
My world is not growing smaller, it is growing in ways I just cannot foreshadow. Just have to stay focused, be diligent, and do my best.
Daughter: I don't want to go to school anymore. It's only the first week and it's too hard.
Doc: Well Becca, maybe later you can change to be a Hindu, then you can get different afterlives and be reborn into a dog like Gerry. Then you can just be a dog and not go to school.
"Man’s main concern is not to gain pleasure or to avoid pain but rather to see a meaning in his life. That is why man is even ready to suffer, on the condition, to be sure, that his suffering has a meaning."- Viktor E. Frankl, Man’s Search for Meaning (via coypatalagsa)
When overwhelmed, we over-complicate.
Step back, take a breath. then take each challenge one bit at a time.
No rush with quality.
Breaking news: White fuckboys on twitter bitching how funny it is that Beyoncé is a feminist when she and her dancers were provocative and half naked. Despite feminism being about empowerment and a woman’s right to do whatever the hell she pleases with it, they just don’t seem to be able to grasp this concept.
In other news, men still don’t know what feminism is, still bitter that they aren’t Beyoncé and still making themselves look like asses on the internet.
And now the weather.
The lessons of this season are impeccable. Although in whatever season I’m in, I feel like i learn the same things, just in different ways, such as seeing a different facet of them. Regardless, I’m grateful for what God is illuminating to me in this time.
1) Patience. I used to think I was pretty patient. I can wait in line, I can wait when someone else is late. But to have enduring patience in striving for your goals is difficult. Being willing to go on God’s timing when you feel like you know what you end-goal is. To persevere in spite of continuous setbacks. I know the direction I want to go. I understand that I need to work harder in order to get there, and try not to be discouraged with things that limit the speed, but honor the patience and drive it takes together.
2) Seeing the beauty before you pass by too quickly. When on a journey, you have to keep you eyes open in all aspects of it. The people and places you meet and see are beautiful, but you need to take the time to appreciate them for how wonderful they are. Give thanks, express your love and adoration. Enjoy God’s creation, God’s presence.
3) Rest is essential to productivity. Same opposites right? But how true it is, to take care of yourself when doing the most for yourself and others. I want to do the best I can, but without physical and spiritual rest, It’s impossible to run a train on fumes. You must take the time to substantially fuel yourself to do your best. This takes patience, and effort, which is weird to say about rest. But solid, intentional rest takes effort on your part to be smart about your recharging time.