Thanks and Trials

I never know what to expect in the daily. While there is routine and discipline, I am constantly surprised by the blessings and trials I go through every 24 hours. 

I am thankful for stable employment. My doctor still pushes me to do my best and my co-workers have started to collectively be more of a group of friends than just people who work together, which I am thankful for. But, my eyes are still on the event planning industry. I worry about if I’m ready for that leap, I stress about how under qualified I still am and how much I need to learn. I make lists of programs I need to learn, classes I need to take, things that I miss on events already planned. But at the the end of the day, I love event planning. It’s my way of serving others, through making their visions come true. I want to give a great experience to those involved. I want to bring more life into something that would otherwise be dull and dry. Sure, maybe I’m not saving lives, but I think God has given me a happy heart to share with the world and this is my outlet of doing so. 

Hyphen has also been an Godsend to me. While I joined purely out of professional development, it has shown me so much about the community Hyphen serves and how we still need to strive for improvement of our Asian-American communities. Being surrounded by activists and others selflessly giving themselves to the community, to those underserved has changed my perspective so much,

Lyft has being a crazy form of income. With meeting people, exploring the city, and being able to pay to go back to school for event planning off of it, it’s crazy to hear the stories I can listen to, and serve my customers with love and grace. TIme consuming, but worth it in the end. 

WIth the stresses of work, dance and art has always been my way of straightening out the mess knotting itself in my mind. Since being in San Francisco, I feel my improvement, I feel my outlook on art maturing and seeking what’s next in terms of my next creation. I still have a long ways to go, I have to learn how my body works, feels the music. But, I think I’m in a great place of growth.

Distance really shows how strong your bonds are with others, whether it be friends, family, significant other. I’m so thankful to have such great company who I can be vulnerable to, who I can shamelessly be myself because I know no matter how weird I come off, they still love me, and I love them. I only can strive to reciprocate the same sentiments, show the same respect, and be there as much as I can as a confidant and comfort.

Children’s Ministry has been a beautiful blessing. I’m grateful that I can serve and love the babies of my church and see how Christ is working in their little lives. They have so much potential and have grown so much since I started serving and I am excited to see how they flourish and shape the world in the future.

There’s this guy too, that I have weird commonalities with it’s really creepy, someone who will always call me out on my quirks and mistakes in the most loving and sarcastic way possible, a man that has pushed me to do my best and branch out without even having to be in the same city as me. I’m so appreciative of his blessing in my daily struggles, thankful for his patience and openness to my transgressions. And I get to see him soon! :)

New hobbies I’ve picked up along the way:
Geocaching! My adventurer self comes out when searching for treasure, even if the treasure is just a little piece of paper I can put my name on. Discovering places that I would otherwise not go to is the best part, and sharing the experiences with others makes it all the more sweeter.

Cooking! I am starting to actually pursue cooking out of the normal shit that I have to eat just because I need to survive. Due to my small budget and want for better health, Ive been honing in on my creative chops with ingredients. While maybe presentation aint that great, I’m doing pretty well in expanding my palate and staying healthy.

Interval training! For as much time as I spend in the gym, I would consider it some sort of hobby. Not a heath nut, not a gym rat, just enjoying my time taking care of myself. My physical health been a huge priority of mine, since I know I have to take care of myself in order to take care of others and my responsibilities. Interval training has been my physical outlet and has pushed be beyond my limits constantly. I appreciate my trainers and classmates so much!

Along with the weekly live music concerts here and there, reading to my heart’s content, and other random things i end up experiencing, I am happy with how things are right now. Looking a year back, it’s a complete 180 to how I was before, but God has provided such love and support in the past year. I’m humbled and grateful for Him, ultimately. For HIs hand has been on all of these things, shaping me to be His follower, His steward of love. PTL for sure.  

"You are personally responsible for becoming more ethical than the society you grew up in."
-

Eliezer Yudkowsky 

"Being a “product of their times” is no excuse. Never let someone off the hook for bigotry."

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humansofnewyork:

“I had cancer when I was sixteen. But honestly, it was so long ago that it’s almost like it happened to a different person. It doesn’t color my interactions or anything. But I’m a dancer, and I do think it’s affected my dancing. There’s this interesting tension between training and striving to control every movement of your body, and realizing that at any moment, your body can rebel against itself in a way that’s completely out of your control.”

humansofnewyork:

“I had cancer when I was sixteen. But honestly, it was so long ago that it’s almost like it happened to a different person. It doesn’t color my interactions or anything. But I’m a dancer, and I do think it’s affected my dancing. There’s this interesting tension between training and striving to control every movement of your body, and realizing that at any moment, your body can rebel against itself in a way that’s completely out of your control.”

"The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen. Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention."
- Rachel Naomi Remen (via kvtes)

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Looking back, I’m so thankful for the grace that Christ has shown me through my relationships with my friends and family. I feel quite undeserving at times of such love and forgiveness considering my past actions and mistakes. Like everyone, selfishness and pride get the best of me, driving me into situations where I’m not thinking of the good of another, just myself. I have felt the negative consequences for sure because of it, with so much pain felt in the process. But in many situations, it ends in strength, love, different perspective, and another chance. Thank you for your blessings.

I’m thankful for my friends and family and colleagues.

While I struggle with changes and blindness to toxicity sometimes, the people in my life have come, gone, and stayed at the right place, at the right time.

I hope I can make you all feel loved and deserving of greatness and respect in this life. Thanks for everything.